Yea!! Chinese O level is finally over! The agony is over!
And Now the Holidays are flowing in, But wait; i still have A-maths extra lessons at school
I still have the NCC day parade trainings
The first few days of my June holidays are all taken up by A maths Extra lesson.
Yesterday, I went to school for lesson late. Very late in actual, 11.15. Got a nice blasting from Miss Ng. Heard from Haris that She wasn't in a good mood that day. Ever since the class started she's been Screaming at the top of her lungs. Hearing that i sort of ignored her scolding for that day.
OK Lesson was about Differentiation. I've change my method of studying. this time around i decided to listing first before copying the notes. Try to understand the lesson before doing anything. Through yesterdays' A maths homework, the method has been proven effective.
I managed to finish the entire work myself (for the very first time).
Today's lesson was a better one. Less screaming. Still asking Why must the Dam lesson be at 8.30 am? So early in the morning!!! I couldn't wake up. My father had spent at lest 1/2 an hour to wake me up. I Went to school an Hour earlier. My father had to go for Work so i had to settle down in school earlier.
During that one hour, i read my comic and played Splinter Cells:Double Agent on my Hand phone. Continued with differentiation. The most difficult part of todays lesson was the part whereby we had to simplify a huge equation.
Tomorrow is Vesak day. A plublic holiday. I hope my parents would be able to bring us all to either Raffles City, Weelock place or Paragon. The Main reason?
CRUMPLER
I am going to try my luck tomorrow on getting my very own Crumpler bag. Been wanting those for a long time. Wish me luck than!
Flying off
Shawn Koh Z. K.
That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
Wow!! So Relieve after the Dam PTC(Parent Teacher conference) !!! Even thought What the VP did was to warn me in front of my parents, i was so scared. For now it's a chapter close. Now for the rest of the year of academic.
I Have reflected and feel that from next Tuesday i must set a side at least 4 hours to study!!
Have to revise last years work or else....
WAH!!!! Next MONDAY IS THE REAL THING!!! THE "O" LEVEL CHINESE EXAMINATION!!
I hope I can get at least a B3 for this paper. My cousin keep on saying that this May Paper is easy. You must score!! You can forget about the November paper. the November paper Fuck all the Normal Pupils till death! Just Score in this Monday's Dumb paper.
I still do not know me real Chinese Calibre. My marks mainly depend on the Bloody Fucking Creative Dictionary. Also i always see my Chinese Marks on the Statics Chart Dancing.
This whole period is just Chinese Chinese and Chinese only!
OK!
Now about yesterdays' PTC & VPPS(Vice-principal Parents Conference)
Everything went smoothly for me no frills. My FT(form Teacher), Don't want to name, just Discuss with my parents about how to help me. Lucky she said that my E- maths had improvement. But My Additional Maths Was atrocious. The worst part was that I'm the first from the bottom of the class position list. What an achievement!
Used to be the top 10 in Sec 1 and 2!! Now the 42th!
Failed practically everything!
Don't want to talk about my shit results.
I guess i've gotta Be off.
Tuition at 2.45
my Homework isn't done yet
3 Hours of PURE Chinese Torture
Try That!!
TRY THAT!!
Flying off
Shawn Koh Z. K.
That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
You are The Hermit
Prudence, Caution, Deliberation.
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That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
23 May 07'
I'm in fuck shit this time around!!! Really Holy fucking Shit!!!!
Due to my "Fucking excellent Results" I have to the Bloody Fucking principal in my fucking School. I have to face with the fear of meeting him, the fear of his blasting, the fear of being sent back to Sec 3, Send back to the N levels, All the other Shit!!
This few days I've reflected on my Dumb fucking "great" Results. i found that the main reasons are that I've started my revision too late, my understanding wasn't there because i was too busy copying note like a photocopier. Also i did not spent enough time to practice what Ever Shit i learn all the while. I've been a little too distracted by my surroundings, but since young i have always been easily distracted easily. I just cannot concentrate, up till now i still dunno why?.
Is music distracting me??
FAQ From my Bloody parents
Nah!! Music Helps a person to concentrate more, but it counts with the type of genre u hear.
25 May 07'
Fuck And Fuck again!!! I have to meet the Vice-principal later. I'm So Scared that something Bad may happen. What some people had said was right. Why didn't i start earlier? Why wait till i get into deep shit to release all this? Why am i so Fucking Lazy?
All the Whys and no Action?
I'm so afraid that i might lose everything that i have accumulated for my self. My advisor post in NCC. or even my rights to study in 4A!!
I'm just stress out by all the Bad possibility that can happen. In this kind of situation There can only be Bad turn outs. Many would have said that I'm being pessimistic but i m force by my surrounding to be such a person.
I just want to scream out loud!! I'm just so stress out by The Vice-principal even without seeing her yet!!
Why must i be in Such Deep Shit again??
And dammit my Class position this time round was the Last in class.
Why can't i just study??
".........sigh............"
Life's but full of misery
In a few hours time shall be the time I'll depart from this world. At 2.15, The time would have come. The meeting of the vice Principal.
Hope i won't get so much scolding! but this hope would most likely not come true.
Damned my Life!!
I Hate Myself for all this shit!!!
"........Sigh........."
Flying off
Shawn Koh .Z. K
That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
Weird!! Weird!! Weird!!
My Luck meter This period has been going high. What have i done to deserve this type of good luck??
I Failed my exam like .......
Don't want to Talk about it
Anyways..........
I've finally change my dam Nerdy specs to a nice new one. Yippee!! A New look at last!!
I'll post the picture below.
Also due to the high running luck, I meet one of my main Objective. To get a new monitor of 19". It is a Viewsonic VA 903b, Costing at a price of 258 bucks (if i didn't remember wrongly) the graphics are good (for my standard) Now my Computer desk Looks more Professional. With all the mess cleared, And with my new monitor!!
Wonder what had gotten into my Dad. He Just Told me about the monitor we saw at Courts just now, at Compass point. To me at that moment was a "Ya, good lor" case, But i never would guess that he actually Said " Shawn!! Kenneth!! Go and choose the best packaging for that monitor, I'm getting it!!"
That was a shocking moment. I thought that he was only notifying us about the price of monitors because the old one was jumping like a cat on a hot brick. This was the second time we experience this type of consternation. The first time was when we got the current car. A Honda Stream. We Children was playing around the show room when we saw our parents at the table discussing. As Curiosity gotten into us we went there to disturb my parents. To our amazement, my father was about to sign the papers to sell that current car, and Acquire the current car, Honda Stream, a MPV Fit to Sit up to 10 passengers (illegal).
Tomorrow shall be the day i might break the Failure news to my parents. And all that i get at the moment might just be the last things i see. My SURNAME. My monitor might get smach?? My Specs taken away. My Handphone Locked away. Bared From touching the computer for the rest of my life. my NCC day parade. Maybe My IACE. My Fokker 50 ride. My Advisor post. My trainings for the rest of the year and next year. My Crumpler.
I might have to face my mothers mindless crying again. My fathers Mindless Screams and shouting. The intense Mood for tomorrow just brings shivers to my spines. I have much fear for all this things since young. Every year at gets worst and worst. Especially this year when Both my siblings do badly for examination too.
"..........sigh............"
I Sigh for the dull and forsaken life i have. All the terrible thing that heppens to me. Why must everything happen to me?? WHY!!???
Who wants my type of parents??? Please TAG And tell me!!!!!!
Please TELL ME!!!!!!!
'.....................Sigh......................"
Am i a Sad person??
Or Am i just a Emo guy??
Who am i??
Who is this failure in everything??
Why do i fail in everything??
Why!!!!
Why???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Guess i suck!!
Heres The picture of my new specs as stated ubove
My New specsFlying off
Shawn Koh Z. K.
That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
History has resurfaced itself again. My Fucking results for the mid-year examination!!!!! I Practically Failed everything. Even thought I've improve in some of the subject, for example, My Social studies. With this result I'm just going on the route of hell in my house. Sometimes i really wonder, how would u fail your examination if you did study? The World is just so torturous!! Stress is taking over people mind!! Through the new i learnt that the number of death due to stress had increase a record high of 180%. But this test was only done for working class adults. What about students? Have they forgotten the students of the 21th century?
Form my point of view, the 21th century students are gaining more and more stress prior to the advancement of the modern world society. The current university degree is just a mere "O" lvl cert in the working world. Many Graduate are finding hard to secure a job.
Looking at these large advancement in the society, it stressful for students as the country would look at them as they are the next generation of all things to happen.
Back to topic
So, With all my failure in the examination, i might lose all my freedom of attending my IACE course, my Fokker 50 ride, my NCC Day parade, my training for the rest of the year, My Advisor post on my NCC Unit, my crumpler bag and many more good things bundled up with my results!!!
I'm so afraid to break the news to my mother. She would cry like fuck once again especially when all 3 of us are not doing well in school. Than I'll have to face hours and hours of lecturing from everyone. Hours of Hell in temperature ranging from 199*C to 444*C.( learnt from my Physic Textbook) Until now I'm haven't resent to the fact that I've fail once again. I had study hard. Slaught like mad. Tried to revise as much as possible. in a short period of time. I guess the main reason is that i started late.
I still ponder over what went wrong in my method of studying? What the Fuck is wrong? I feel so confused, so lost in the world of failing. The world of F9s isn't a place for a person like me. I cannot stay in this region but How?? How the hell am i going to pick everything up for The holy Fuck End-year Examination.
I need someone to advise me on studying skills but who? My parents certainly will Murder me before i say a single word. My teachers?? They seem to be far to busy and i always have this phobia of talking to teachers. Find the counsellor?? No Way!! I've been through that in Primary school and it's just: Useless. My problem wasn't solve. Don't ask me what the hell is that problem, i dun wanna say. Talk to friends?? Ya, like as if they give a fucking dam about me??
"......sigh....." Life is nothing but mere stress increasing.
Now moving on to another Topic.
"Bang" goes the swooping ball. Hit my head and there goes my spectacles. Now I'm Posting blog entry without my specs. I'm as blind as a Bat at this moment. Straining my eyes to type this entry. to not have ant casualty in a soccer is almost impossible. But why does it have to always me? And its always my bloody specs!!
After school at 10 am. I went straight home with Eric. He Wanted to Buy the bloody Electronic Dictionary that failed me. By the time we went to that dumb corner stall, it was already a " Sorry hor? we do not have the stock at the moment. maybe u come back in July??"
Our reaction was " WHAT THE FUCK?? How Can this be possible?? The Blary O Lvl Chinese is on the 28 of May!! Are they cursing us to fail our Os??"
After that Eric went home disappointed and i went home Blind without my second eye : the specs.
Soon after sending my Sister to school, i went to make my specs. I bought a Blue colour one. A new colour to my collection of specs.
Okie..... Its time for my Dinner. So hungry!!
Hope i can pass through this critical moment of time
Flying off
Shawn Koh Z. K.
That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
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They came out with their albums, Meteora, Hybrid Theory, Reanimation, Collision Coure( made with Jay-Z), Minutes to midnight( just made)
I've gotten all their album. They all rules!!
Please do listin to the album. Buy it!! Support them!!
U can listin to their song on my blog here
just click onto the Link Section!!
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Flying off
Shawn Koh Z.K
That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
Examination!! The worst Time of the year i have. Stresses about what I'll have lie in my results. Also for this year the PTC (parent-teacher conference) also depends on the bloody dam result. It like not fair, i got this felling that no matter if i pass with flying colours or fail practically everything, that teacher would want to meet my parents to complain once again. Every years it the same routine.
Ok!!
Finally after 169 hours and 15 minutes of gruelling Examination, I've gotten my freedom for now!! Yippee!!
And again Finally i can blog again!!
Exam exam.. Soo stressful...
wonder will i pass anyof the subjects
Now another topic
Dam my fucked up monitor. It has been jumping the entire week. Seem like it dying. Wonder what's the best monitor brand for now. What should i get? A LCD one?? Or an ordinary big size one?? What size should i get?? 19' Inch?? 21 inch?? What shape Rectangle or Square??
Since it freedom now i should take the chances to play. I should go play now.
Flying off (with some freedom)
Shawn Koh Z. K.
That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
I kept my tears inside
sometimes I don't want to hide
I always said that no one care
And I was right
now I am lonely
now no one's here
just when I thought I was happy
I was sad
just when I though I was sad
I was just too scared
I don't want to live like this
I want to let it out
I want to just scream out loud
I wish I could just leave
leave the world
leave my fears
leave the past behind
I wish I could just grow up to be
to be wonderful
to be happy
to be able to live my life till the end
I wish I could have
could have a friend
could have never to hold my tears in
I wish I was free to just cry
I wish I was just free to let it all out but I’m not
so I kept my tears inside.
Found this on my Cousins blog.
sound dam Emo!!
sound nice!!
therefore U find it here!!
Many thing mention in the Poem seem applicable to me
Haizzzz'
Maybe i'm turning Emo too!!
Flying Off
Shawn Koh Z. K.
That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
In the month of May, comes many birthday celebration for me. It also bring the Mid-year examination closer than i thought. First up was my brother's birthday which was in actual 2 days ago. Yep! The 3rd of May in 1994, i heard the first cry of my brother, Koh Zhao Zhong Kenneth. Now on the 3rd of May ,was his 13th Birthday (English calendar) 14th (Chinese calendar) .
Happy Birthday My Dearest ,cute, dumb, funny Brother Kenneth.
The second one, My Grandfather, Mr Koh Joo Hiong Patrick (wonder if i spelled correctly). On 8th of May, Marks his 68th Birthday (English calendar) 69th (Chinese calendar). Today we celebrated his birthday at his house.
Happy Birthday Ye Ye!!
Ok this Blog entry would be kept short as many photos will be uploaded!!
As many would hav said "A picture tells a thousand word"
So just look at the pictures With Caption.
PRESENTING THE PICTURES!!
Erm......................
Sorry there isn't the picture for now!!
Sorry arh!!
Due to the up comming Mid-year Examination The pictures will only be publish after my Exams as it would take up quite a lot of time to settle the uploading process
So please wait for the Best effects of the photos
Flying off
Shawn Koh Z. K.
That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
In the middle of the night....... its the quietest moment u can get......
the most private moment of the day....
This may also bring inspiration to the mind to study, to blog, to wrote a story book, a piece of composition... etc.
Also the night is a time where human beings have to sleep to rejuvenate oneself for the next days events to come. I have no idea why am i not fast asleep in my warm and cosy bed and typing away secretly.
Maybe i'm to trobled by today??
or perhaps jus bored tooo death??
i just don't know why am i blogging right now...................
Maybe this is the end of this post.........................................................................
Flyin off
Shawn Koh Z.K.
That Guitar Strummed again
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
The Violin got mysteriously bowed
